Life and Me

Well this is my first blog.. im just trying to figure this thing out so bare with me. My kids are still awake they think they are too good for naps anymore. I just know im gonna go bonkers tonight, especially with 2 overtired children. Julia has been going to school. She is one smart cookie she's been coming home with drawings, and things she made in school and she did such a good job!!! When she came home from daddies this weekend she did some painting and got almost ALL of it within the lines i was amazed!! She is sooo smart i cannot believe she is turning 4 years old in November it's hard to believe because time has just gone by so quickly. Clarissa is my little diva.. she rules the world at 2 years old.. she knows best (So she THINKS) lol she is a smart little girl she is talking in sentences now that is pretty amazing for a 2 year old huh?? I love these little girls so much!!! They are the only think that makes me happy in life right now.

My husband is a jerk, i want him gone.. we've been having problems for years now. I just chose to keep things bottled up until last night i just went off. It's hard being with someone that doesn't love you or treat you with respect. He can say a million times he loves me but it doesn't mean he means it because if he did we'd have a happy marriage for the most part. Sometimes i feel like the only reason he is here is because of his daughter. I kicked him out last night and he came back because it was cold out so i told him to come back in and sleep on the couch and he did. Today he's been trying to apologize all day and beg and plea for my forgiveness and for us to work things out even if that means therapy but we will see what happens with that.. i just don't think i can do it anymore i don't ever believe the sayings that opposites attract because that certainly isn't our case. MY blogs will be very interesting as you can tell. Stay tuned more to come tomorrow... i know this is alot for a first blog but hey that's life right...